It’s a Thursday morning and my alarm goes off. I gripe and wine and tell Zoe to get out of my face until the stupid thing starts to shriek again. I embark on my daily routine, fussing about being forced to wear pants, and when I get to school, I put my head down on the table at my seat and wait for my Ethics professor to saunter in…
It occurs to me that I have not read for class. In fact, I have not read for class in quite some time – the word “weeks” pops into my head. I haven’t read and I have no idea where we are in the lessons. The syllabus is no help, we haven’t been on track since day 2. The professor’s voice breaks through my haze as he calls on a classmate just a few names higher than me on the alphabetical role, I look at the clock…9:45. 60 minutes left. Fuck! I’m on call today.
I scramble to the page in the text where my next assignment is, a case. I go to Lexis to read the summary, it makes no sense. I suppose it would help if I had a vague idea what Lawyering Ethics topic we were on, but I don’t. I search on casebriefs.com…nothing, dammit!
I’m going to actually have to read this case. In, like, 5 minutes. No, less.
Cutting to the chase, I skim the case and find relevant points that make sense according to the lovely chapter heading a few pages prior (should’ve started there). Following, I find the relevant model rule in the tome of a rule supplement I own for this class and eventually come up with a way that the case and the rule go together. My answers are cogent enough that my professor adds his sage words and moves on to the next student.
This scene, and ones similar, is starting to become more and more of a regular thing. I can’t muster the energy to actually put effort in to get my work done in a timely fashion, or…ever.
And I am not alone. Many of my comrades in arms have expressed sentiments similar to how I feel: “I’m so over school“; “I haven’t been to class in a week and a half“; and “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I go out so much more now than I used to…”
This is what I like to call the Second Year What-The-Fuck-Evers or 2L WTFEs, for short.
The old law school adage is: “1L they scare you to death, 2L they work you to death, 3L they bore you to death.” I felt worked to death last semester and maybe that’s why this semester I can’t find my mojo.
I think it’s too early for this line of thinking, we have a whole year and a quarter left and then the bar. And yet, I can’t be bothered otherwise.